i don't have too many complaints.

i was just thinking about how i always think about when i grow up things will be like this or that. it just occurred to me that maybe i'm already grown up. maybe the way things will be is the same as the way things are now. it made me feel like im running out of time. like this is my christmas vacation during the school year and i know it will end soon. but the weird part is, this could likely last until i die. what's strange is that i dont think i would mind. i like the way things are right now. i dont even mind the debt and paying rent. it makes me feel a little more real. granted it sucks to be broke and not have any time to develop anything aside from work-related shit. but in the end, im living a great life. i get to live/party in a downtown, metro city, without having to do any strenuous labor to support myself.